waiting is killing me.....

tomorrow is the day......
for what???
tomorrow i'm going home...with my perak friends.we are going to our teacher's wedding ceremony...my flu is getting better and i'm fine now...so it's time to party.....
the ceremony is in Teluk Intan, where my best friend live...quite far away from my hometown in penang actually....
this week.....
so many things happen...and so many test...chemistry, physics, and math...
i don't know....i sleep at 2.00 a.m everyday...just to have some revision...
i think i'll fill up my holiday with sleeping,sleeping and sleeping...that's what I do when i was in secondary school...when the holiday came... it's time to sleep...except there was interesting programme in T.V...not really thinking about homework...even when i was going to take spm....
i don't really care about my study...because it was holiday...that's why i' not getting great result in my spm...who cares...that's my result...
my sister in japan is going home....
she is so busy with her study now as this is her last year....my mom said she cries a lot because a lot of work to do.....but i trust in her....she is such a wonderful sister for me even though some time i can feel there is discrimination.....my mom loves her more than me...i don't know...
maybe that just my feeling...but that's how i feel...
last but not least.....
i hope that someday i can be just like my sister..where everybody likes her....
not exactly like her but the best i can be...i am what i am.....

HAPPY HOLIDAY!!!

i'm sick...............

i'm sick of everything.....
i know that as a muslim, we had to accept chalengges and be patient.....
i'm having fever with my throat hurt and my nose feel tight.....
my ustaz in secondary school had ever said to me that if we are sick that's mean Allah want us to remember Him....
that also mean he want us to stop doing sins......
that also mean He always ramember us......
but sometime i always failed to control my anger.....
i know i shouldn't blame other for my own mistake.....
i blame my friend......
it's not really their fault......
i was the one who didn't know to take care myself......
not enough water.......


i'm sick........
i'm sick of money........
i don't know whether i love money or not........
everything is money in this world........
like my friend always said.....'no money no talk'.........
i can't stop myself using money when i have it......
if no one try to stop me....
when i lack of money, i'll hate money......
money make me sick......but i still need them.......
i still don't understand my feeling....
but i hope some day i will learn to appreciate what i have.....

p/s: really sorry...i have fever.i can't stand the air-cond.....

my favourite counselor is coming..............

the title is just a title.....
i don't know why i always lack of ideas when it come to this....
i've think about it but it seems like i still need to think....
my counselor from kutpm wants to visit me on saturday,
he helps me a lot but we are just connected with sms......
anyone can give me idea how to cancel his plan.....
'talking' in sms is not the same.........aiyya......he wants me to go alone.............i've asked him to meet him with my friend but he refused.

i don't wanna do this anymore.....
i don't wanna be the reason why.........
i don't wanna be a murderer....

my favourite song 'unfaithful'
my roommate taught me that song......she played that song 5 times a day but i think the song is still fresh so i don't feel boring.....
kinda busy this week. my physics marks make me sick...........i can't sleep because of that.........
yesterday i took my math test.........my friend forgot her calculator......and i stuck at number 3.what a question...................

last but not least...............
i need someone who can teach me physics.......
critical subject for me.............